This is me again lost in my thoughts. Do you always have to think if what you are doing is right or wrong and try and do what you feel is presumed to be right or will be taken as the right thing by others. What should one do in those situations, you feel like doing something or saying something, you are not sure if that would be taken in a wrong spirit by someone, you might end up hurting someone.
You pull back and stay silent.
There are moments in life where all life demands from you is the speak your heart out and not contemplate if what you are doing is right or wrong.
Happened to me twice during my flight to Chicago, there was this young girl who was physically challenged (May be she was mentally challenged too, from her looks), she was with her mother at the airport. I was finishing up my lunch at pizza hut in the airport, when I happen to see this girl.
Even though she was challenged she had an amazing smile and I felt like walking up to her and telling her that she had a great smile. Then I get into my thoughts of whether it is appropriate or not, should I tell her mom about it or her, will she understand what I told her if she is challenged.... will she think I a being sympathetic.... The devil in my thought goes on while the flight attendant announces the start of boarding for the flight. Mom and daughter pull into the gate for boarding their flight and I stand there still thinking...................... Not too much worried about the girl at the airport but other situations where all I did was some stupid thinking.........
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
Logic or Impression
If I like someone and they manage to create a good impression on me I become more comfortable dealing with them. On the contrary I always thought that I am a person of logic and I think logically do things or get comfortable with people.. Maybe not.. I cranked up my car to get to office and must have woken up on the left side of the bed, i guess (Proved to be a bad day for me). The engine check light on my car started showing up on the dashboard. I had this car just for 3 months and I loved the car and did not expect it to ditch me this soon, well my obsession of my car is not what I started to write about.. I had to get this fixed and usually takes a couple of hundred dollars to just get the problem diagnosed, forget about how much it would cost to fix the problem. I called up Audi dealership to check if they can get this taken care for me over the weekend, unfortunately they do not open on the weekends and I had to leave it a the local firestone. The Firestone guys could not diagnose the problem and they gave up saying that only Audi service center can diagnose the issue. I did not have a choice I had to take it to the dealership.
I tried calling up the dealership service guy who had worked on my car before, but could not reach him. I decided to drive my car to the dealership and get it checked. I parked my car and entered the dealership and wandered around trying to figure out whom should I talk to, checked with the immediate counter from where the lady directed me to the service desk. I stood there waiting for someone to ask me what my issue was, while I was waiting I heard this service guy bitching about a customer and complaining about not meeting his yearly targets.
He was talking with his colleague that the customer did not even want to change his worn out tires, I even suggested him cheaper tires if he did not have the money was his point. With these types of customers how will he meet his targets was his concern.
After that I was next to get honored, he checked with me what the problem was and I told him about the engine check light, he told me that they will need at least a day to diagnose the problem. He wanted me to leave the car with them and check back tomorrow. I was not prepared to leave the car, I told him I cannot leave my car on a weekday as I needed the car to get to office everyday.
He offered to arrange for a rental (that was a good idea), for some reason I not convinced and told him I will get the car tomorrow and made an appointment.
I never looked back, not sure why I did that, in spite of the fact that I could not get my car fixed outside.. I still had the engine check light problem. Google once again to my rescue, I looked up for a service center near my office and found one. I called this new service guy and he was very friendly and told me he can fix it, just get me the car, we will fix it for you. He was not an authorized Audi dealer, but for some reason I could trust him and took the car to him next day. After taking a look at the car he asked me if I wanted to change the timing belt on the car, I knew that it was due after 20k miles and I did not want to get it done, he showed me Audi recommendation and told me it is better to change it after 75k miles, sooner the better. I guess I fell for it and asked him to get it done for me. Now when I look back and see what I did, I actually fell for someone who was friendly and did not go with Audi dealership which was not logical, and I ended up spending $1000 more on a job which was not necessary at that time. I guess I still have a lot of thinking on what drives me and why.........................
I tried calling up the dealership service guy who had worked on my car before, but could not reach him. I decided to drive my car to the dealership and get it checked. I parked my car and entered the dealership and wandered around trying to figure out whom should I talk to, checked with the immediate counter from where the lady directed me to the service desk. I stood there waiting for someone to ask me what my issue was, while I was waiting I heard this service guy bitching about a customer and complaining about not meeting his yearly targets.
He was talking with his colleague that the customer did not even want to change his worn out tires, I even suggested him cheaper tires if he did not have the money was his point. With these types of customers how will he meet his targets was his concern.
After that I was next to get honored, he checked with me what the problem was and I told him about the engine check light, he told me that they will need at least a day to diagnose the problem. He wanted me to leave the car with them and check back tomorrow. I was not prepared to leave the car, I told him I cannot leave my car on a weekday as I needed the car to get to office everyday.
He offered to arrange for a rental (that was a good idea), for some reason I not convinced and told him I will get the car tomorrow and made an appointment.
I never looked back, not sure why I did that, in spite of the fact that I could not get my car fixed outside.. I still had the engine check light problem. Google once again to my rescue, I looked up for a service center near my office and found one. I called this new service guy and he was very friendly and told me he can fix it, just get me the car, we will fix it for you. He was not an authorized Audi dealer, but for some reason I could trust him and took the car to him next day. After taking a look at the car he asked me if I wanted to change the timing belt on the car, I knew that it was due after 20k miles and I did not want to get it done, he showed me Audi recommendation and told me it is better to change it after 75k miles, sooner the better. I guess I fell for it and asked him to get it done for me. Now when I look back and see what I did, I actually fell for someone who was friendly and did not go with Audi dealership which was not logical, and I ended up spending $1000 more on a job which was not necessary at that time. I guess I still have a lot of thinking on what drives me and why.........................
Saturday, January 5, 2008
Bucket List
Not sure if 'Bucket list' is a dictionary word for a list, but this is a movie title staring Jack Nicholson and Morgan freeman who play two cancer patents counting their last days, they decide not to spend the rest of their life in the hospital but go ahead and enjoy life by completing the list of item that they feel they should do before they die, the 'Bucket List'.
Makes me wonder if everyone of us knew when we would die would the world be any different, would we try to make the most of it? Would we worry less or worry more about life. I am not sure how that would work but what do you think a typical ‘Bucket list’ of a common man would look like. Will the list have need to have a $ Billion bank balance (whatz the use in having a bank balance when u r gone) or will it have things like I want to spend few days in the Himalayas or a cruise to Antarctica, letting my imagination run wild.. but what would you want to do if you knew that you just have another year to live?
Will it make sense to take your life one year at a time and just live it, you will never know which one would be your last year. You would at least live your life the way you want it.
I think death being uncertain, and since no one knows when we would be gone takes away a lot from your life. I just sat at home this weekend working on something and did nothing, not sure if I would have wasted my time if I knew this is my last month.
Do you think it would make sense to know your last day on earth, if yes what would you do knowing the answer?
With 6 Billion population on earth not everyone of us are going to make a name for ourselves, that generation to come would remember (Not me definitely, figured it out late :)) then is there a purpose for which all of us are hanging around?
Is there a meaning to our lives that we are searching for, itz a tricky question do we live our life to find a meaning or we just live our life because we are born and we need to sustain and look better than others (That is the only purpose i can think of)
Well as I sit back and wonder without any answers to any of my questions, I am still not sure if it makes sense to have a yearly bucket list of what to do, life is uncertain as it is anyway.. you will never know which one of your bucket list would get lucky to be THE 'Bucket List'.
Makes me wonder if everyone of us knew when we would die would the world be any different, would we try to make the most of it? Would we worry less or worry more about life. I am not sure how that would work but what do you think a typical ‘Bucket list’ of a common man would look like. Will the list have need to have a $ Billion bank balance (whatz the use in having a bank balance when u r gone) or will it have things like I want to spend few days in the Himalayas or a cruise to Antarctica, letting my imagination run wild.. but what would you want to do if you knew that you just have another year to live?
Will it make sense to take your life one year at a time and just live it, you will never know which one would be your last year. You would at least live your life the way you want it.
I think death being uncertain, and since no one knows when we would be gone takes away a lot from your life. I just sat at home this weekend working on something and did nothing, not sure if I would have wasted my time if I knew this is my last month.
Do you think it would make sense to know your last day on earth, if yes what would you do knowing the answer?
With 6 Billion population on earth not everyone of us are going to make a name for ourselves, that generation to come would remember (Not me definitely, figured it out late :)) then is there a purpose for which all of us are hanging around?
Is there a meaning to our lives that we are searching for, itz a tricky question do we live our life to find a meaning or we just live our life because we are born and we need to sustain and look better than others (That is the only purpose i can think of)
Well as I sit back and wonder without any answers to any of my questions, I am still not sure if it makes sense to have a yearly bucket list of what to do, life is uncertain as it is anyway.. you will never know which one of your bucket list would get lucky to be THE 'Bucket List'.
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